Charlotte Babb Portfolio: The Clay Gate

The Call

The Path

The Silver Gate

The Picket Fence Gate

The Clay Gate

The Black and White Gate

The Rustic Gate

The Bone Gate

The Natural Gate

The Golden Gate

What Lies Beyond

My Conclusion

The Artifacts

Charlotte Babb Home

Charlotte Babb Resume

The Clay Gateintimacy, sensuality, sexuality

Clueless

by Charlotte Babb

My thread just ran out….
makes me clueless I guess
So I sit here in the dark
wondering what is the point

There is no minotaur in the labyrinth
Only me
There is no dashing hero
Only me
There is no drunken god,
Wooing me with his seductive wiles
Only an empty vessel
I drank him dry-

There is only me
But there IS me
I am here
I am awake
And breathing
Dead and reborn
Clay footed
Star crowned
Crone-virgin
Goddess

 

artifact: "Clueless" poem

 

 

 

 

 

The Clay Gate Reflection

We do not always reach the gates in order. Summer Quarter has been my Clay Gate as I felt my way through the dark, considering whether I had chosen the right path. Several of my Jag sisters had left, and I wondered if I should drop out too.

I questioned my goals and found that my original ideas held no present meaning. I felt dead, and the reality of the student loans hit me, along with all the side work I was doing to get to class twice a year. I began to see how much work redefining my life was going to take.

I have learned that our culture does not wish us to grow and it provides no tools other than therapy to deal with the consequences of that growth. So it is up to me to use what I can get from class and to teach myself

 

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